Selfish....

Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)
self·ish - Pronunciation[sel-fish]

–adjective 1. devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one's own interests, benefits, welfare, etc., regardless of others.
2. characterized by or manifesting concern or care only for oneself: selfish motives.

—Synonyms 1. self-interested, self-seeking, egoistic; illiberal, parsimonious, stingy.

This is how I would describe nearly everyone in my personal life. I know that children are self-serving by their very nature but at some point wouldn't a person expect that to change? How about by the time they reach 27 years of age? How about 47 years of age?

Maybe I'm wrong and maybe I'm expecting far too much but I don't think so!

At 17, sure - invite all your friends to your home when Mom and Dad go away for the night. However, if you've done that before and gotten caught and been specifically asked the next time to not lose your mind and forget everything you've been taught and yet you do it again the very next time! Um, what the hell is THAT all about?????

At 27? You ignore the law, any semblance of common sense, and the express wishes of your parents by inviting a house-full of under aged teens to your home, allow them to drink alcohol and smoke illegal substances, and then kick them to the curb to fend for themselves once you're tired of them? What the hell is THAT?????

At 47? You lay about on your day off, do absolutely nothing, and fix french fries for your spouse for dinner after he/she works all day and gets home at 8:30 pm - too tired and hungry to cook. What about when your spouse calls you from work, on your day off, mind you, tells you they are having a crazy day and would you mind doing something for dinner so there's something to eat when he/she gets home and your response is "Well, WHAT do YOU want?" Your spouse tells you "Anything. I don't really care. Do you have a taste for anything? If so, go with that."

The response - "Well, I don't want anything right now but I'll get YOU something if you just tell me what to get!" Your spouse, who is at work, in the middle of a crazy day, quitting time isn't for another 4 hours, and they are supposed to make that decision on the spot after asking you to take that responsibility off his/her shoulders????????????

In the end, the spouse at work says just forget it, I'll pick myself up something to eat on the way home. The 47 year old says "OK!" and goes back to the couch for the remainder of the day with no further thought given to the needs of his/her spouse.

These are all portraits of people who clearly give no thought to anyone but themselves, care nothing of the consequences of their actions - or lack of action. All these people do what they want, when they want, and how they want while thumbing their noses at others.

I don't get it. I really just don't get it. Disappointment permeates me to the very depths of my soul. I don't want to care about these people anymore.